i used to know you so well.

Yellow - Coldplay
Thursday, March 5, 2009
fucked up.

sometimes i feel that i've a fucked up life.
every single thing i do is wrong.
every shit thing i do, all they do is scold and scold and scold.
my results are lousy.
yes i take that as my fault.
but dont they think they have a part to play as well?
depriving me of almost everything since young.
all the do is to force me to study.
what i like to do, i have to do it discreetly.
when they find out, all they do is to fuck me upside down.
people say i'm daring.thick skinned.
well, try getting fucked by your father in front of the whole school.you will become shameless.
i have guts.plenty of it.thanks to them.
whatever i do is wrong.whatever they do is right.
they make me get sick of studying.i hate it.
they say i put in no effort to study.
but why cant i have the freedom to study myself.
why must i be forced.
from straight A's to C's and D's.
this is what you get for making me sick of studying.
yes, results are impt.
but the way you all want me to get it, made me lose some very impt things and people in my life.
just because of results.
fuck studies.i dont give a fuck abt it.

[ made a promise]
~3/05/2009 11:44:00 PM